so for the first time in what feels like forever, i feel like i am wanted by someone.

It makes me angry when people take the moral high ground, when they have no right to. Don’t you dare say something is disgusting and condemn someone else for it, when you did pretty fucking similar to me. You make me sick.

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1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? No!
2. You talked to an ex today, correct? Incorrect.
3. Have you taken someones virginity? Yes.
4. Is trust a big issue for you? Yes.
5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently? Nope :c.
6. What are you excited for? Breaking up from Uni for Christmas.
7. What happened tonight? It’s not been tonight yet!
8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? Nah, shit happens!
9. Is confidence cute? Not cute, hot. But there’s a fine line between confidence and arrogance, and arrogance is horrible.
10. What is the last beverage you had? Summer Fruits juice.
11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? None, ha!
12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? Of course.
13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? I am not getting royally fucked up again.
14. What are you going to spend money on next? Radfest i hope!
15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? Nope.
16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? Probably not so much.
17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? Alice :3.
18. The last time you felt broken? This morning.
19. Have you had sex today? Nope :c.
20. Are you starting to realize anything? Yes.
21. Are you in a good mood? Kinda.
22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? HEEEELLLL NO!
23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? Yeah! :)
24. What do you want right this second? Pasta.
25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy? I’d just be broken.
26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? Haha, no.
27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? Maybe.
28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? Someone i know is planning to buy an ice-cream van.
29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? Yes.
30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? No.
31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? No way!
32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? No.
33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? Nopeeee.
34. Listening to? The TV.
35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? I love to write in pencil. Some lectures, i’ll just do it because i can. Plus, i have Johnny Cupcakes pencils!
36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is? Nope.
37. Do you believe in love at first sight? Yeah.
38. Who did you last call? Carla i think or maybe Claire.
39. Who was the last person you danced with? Claire.
40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? Can’t remember.
41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? Aaaaaages ago.
42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today? Nope.
43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? Yeah.
44. Do you tan in the nude? No.
45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss? I can’t even remember who my last kiss was.
46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? No.
47. Who was the last person to call you? Cousin.
48. Do you sing in the shower? Haha no.
49. Do you dance in the car? Yeah sometimes.
50. Ever used a bow and arrow? Yeah! AND I GOT A BULLSEYE.
51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? Oh not too long ago.
52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? No way.
53. Is Christmas stressful? Yes haha.
54. Ever eat a pierogi? A what now?
55. Favorite type of fruit pie? I like apple or the mixed berry ones.
56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? Forensics person! :O.
57. Do you believe in ghosts? Hell yes.
58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? Loads.
59. Take a vitamin daily? Nope.
60. Wear slippers? Yesss!
61. Wear a bath robe? Yessss! :)
62. What do you wear to bed? Shorts and a shirt, unless it’s winter then I’m in my HK onesie.
63. First concert? S Club 7. Don’t judge :P
64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? Non-mart.
65. Nike or Adidas? Adidas!
66. Cheetos Or Fritos? What? WATSITS!
67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? Peanuts.
68. Favorite Taylor Swift song? Oh my God i can’t remember it but it goes “She took you faster than i could say sabotage” or something.
69. Ever take dance lessons? HELL NO.
70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? Nah.
71. Can you curl your tongue? Yep.
72. Ever won a spelling bee? Don’t have those here.
73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? Yes!
74. What is your favorite book? Guitar Girl - Sarra Manning.
75. Do you study better with or without music? Without.
76. Regularly burn incense? Yep sometimes.
77. Ever been in love? I believe i have.
78. Who would you like to see in concert? I’ve seen most i wanted to haha!
79. What was the last concert you saw? The Blackout.
80. Hot tea or cold tea? Neither.
81. Tea or coffee? Neither.
82. Favorite type of cookie? Chocolate chip DOUUBLE! :D
83. Can you swim well? Indeed i can.
84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? Yes.
85. Are you patient? Haha in some situations.
86. DJ or band, at a wedding? Band. DJ at the after party.
87. Ever won a contest? Yeah.
88. Ever have plastic surgery? NO.
89. Which are better black or green olives? Neither.
90. Opinions on sex before marriage? Go for ittt! ;)
91. Best room for a fireplace? Lounge/living room.
92. Do you want to get married?Yeah think so.

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…had memories come attack you in your dreams? I did last night.

In fact, i have had this a lot lately.

All about one person, my subconscious seems to find it funny to play out situations that could have happened if we ever saw each other.

We never will, i hope to God we never do see each other.

But this shit is really fucking upsetting me and taking me back to a time i don’t want to go back to.

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This lecture is making me lose the will to live OMFG I WANT MY BED lol oh

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Then i remember deleting the messages through tears months later,

and then i wish i never even hear your name again.

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It’s kinda scary jeeeeez.

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You know, just someone i can talk mindlessly to and cuddle a lot, or something.

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Hello, Bonjour, Ola etc etc.

I dunno man i’m feeling great lately. Uni is awesome, I’ve met brilliant people and I have so many great opportunities. But in starting uni and meeting a lot of new people these past few months, I’m starting to realize that people I’ve known years, who call themselves my ‘friends’, aren’t actually friends at all.

Sometimes i sit down and think ‘Nah, they’re too nice, they don’t realize what they’re doing to me or how they hurt me’, but i can only think that for so long. Even after speaking to these people, it still happens. Over and over. And some things, an apology doesn’t fix. Not even close, I’m a bastard for it but i admit:i hold grudges.

I cannot get this shit out of my head and, to be honest, i really am sick of being walked all over. I don’t need this shit man fucksake.

I could go on for days, tbh I would kill for someone to talk to who i can trust 100% with this, but i know anyone i tell will speak out about this. But i need to talk to someone, before i implode and die.

Fuckkkk.

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